Wow.
I was reading my 2 other posts, and I was like ... shit, that happened? Was I really that happy?
Well in case you haven't picked up on the questionable joyousness, let me fill you in just a little bit.
And I mean only a little.
First thing on my mind?
My best guy friends and how I screwed things over with one (BUT HE'S FUCKING STUPID SO WHATEVER... -__-, =[ )and how the other just isn't himself anymore.
Second?
Bobby. Bobbybobbybobby. Fuck him. But no...
Third?
I WANT TO GET OUT OF THIS HOUSE.
I HAVE 2 YEARS TO GRADUATE.
I HOPE I CAN GET INTO EASTMAN,
which has become my new goal.
Fourth?
My stupid science classes that I already have a B and C in. Fuck that. I WANT A's.
Do you think if I want it, I can do it?
Fifth?
I HATE my parents. HATEHATEHATE. Not even like, teen aguish hate. No,
Hate. With a capital "H" and fire coursing through my veins.
There's more, but I don't feel like thinking logically any longer.
I'm so glad I have music back, and I really like everyone in my classes. I basically have no problem in school except my start offs in AP chem and Hon. physics. I've just decided that I'm going to kick ass in those classes no matter what. I hate the feeling of being lost and confused and just along for a ride. I've done that and I've realized I need control of my own life and I need to get rid of hypocrisies and condicentions. If that's even how you spell it.
For once in my life, I'm ready to have my own back.
I look forward to my birthday and what comes.
Even though now sucks.
You've just witnessed my process of liberation.
I hope it's inspired you to do good in the world,
cuz everyone needs some love.
W4
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Mayya.
Current Mood:
re6uyie5Current Music: Gregory And The Hawk - The Point, Sometimes.